Elizabeth Smart Opens Up About Her 2 Kids and a Life Now Full of Blessings: ‘I Really Do Feel Like a Luckiest Woman’

It’s a new autumn day in Park City, Utah, and all seems golden — a ideal forgive for another outing to a park for Elizabeth Smart, 30, and her dual children, Chloe, 2, and 8-month-old James.

Smart, who has called a ski-resort city home given she got married 5 and a half years ago, lives nearby a park and adjacent soccer margin and visits so frequently that “it’s like a second home,” she says.

As she settles her son onto a sweeping on a weed and watches Chloe hee-haw with a new crony on a playground’s slide, Smart tells PEOPLE she has most for that to be thankful.

“My children have brought so most complacency and joy,” she says. “To me, they’re a unequivocally clarification of love.”

Married to Matthew Gilmour, a Scot she met while both were portion missions for a Mormon Church in France, Smart wondered 15 years ago if a normal life and motherhood would ever be probable after she was kidnapped from her bedroom late one summer’s night in 2002 and brutalized by her captors for 9 months before being rescued.

“Today, I’m so beholden for a tiny things,” she tells PEOPLE exclusively.

“I’m beholden for rain, since when we was kidnapped, that meant that we had something to drink,” she says. “I was beholden for when people would chuck out their leftovers during restaurants in those doggy bags, since that meant that infrequently we had something to eat. I’m beholden for a sunshine, since it warmed me when we was cold. Certainly, we was beholden for my family and who they were and who my relatives were.”

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“I arise adult each morning,” Smart says now, “and we feel like a unequivocally propitious and sanctified woman.”

Her horrific distress is never distant from her mind, however.

On Nov. 18, Smart, who works as a victims’ rights advocate and as a contributor to a syndicated TV uncover Crime Watch Daily, will have her story retold in a two-part Lifetime movie she produced, I Am Elizabeth Smart. And subsequent spring, she will recover her second book, Where There’s Hope, an up-close and personal glance into her recovering process.

“I motionless to do [the movie] since they wanted me concerned each step of a way, and we suspicion it competence also assistance other victims and survivors,” she says.

Although Smart is happily wrapped adult in trips to a park and “Family Night Friday” outings for pizza, she says it’s formidable to find a “happy medium” between permitting her brave daughter to try and wondering either she will be safe.

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“There’s a partial of me that’s always thinking, ‘Are a windows shut? Where is she at? Who is by her? Can we see her?’ we don’t wish to let Chloe out of my sight,” Smart explains. “I will never bewail being there for my children, examination them, creation certain they’ll be okay. But we competence bewail not being there for them.”

As she speaks with PEOPLE, she tickles James and hands him Chloe’s ballerina doll, that her daughter has thrown down from a slide. In a few minutes, though, Chloe is behind for her toy, wanting to play in a hulk sandbox nearby James’ blanket.

When James starts to fuss, his mom gives him a drug and scoops him adult in her arms, holding him tighten as his cries spin to smiles.

“At moments like these,” she says, “I unequivocally do feel like a luckiest lady in a world.”