After losing their son — whom a integrate named Johnathan Edward — 4 months into Otis’ pregnancy final summer, a existence star “went into a low depression,” she tells PEOPLE exclusively. “I usually couldn’t suppose ever being truly happy again.”
Even now, “I still have my moments,” adds Otis, who began perplexing for another baby with Hehner shortly after losing their son. “Every month I’d take exam after test. It was such a infamous cycle.”
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“I’m not customarily superstitious, though we really consider Henley was a gift from her large brother,” says Otis, 31. “I was so miserable during a holidays since we was ostensible to be bringing him home by mid-December.”
“I felt like there was a large hole in my heart and we dreaded carrying to arise adult on his due date,” she admits.
Now back home with baby Henley, a new relatives are knee-deep in unwashed diapers and fastening with their small girl.
“Everything’s come naturally so far,” says Hehner, 34. “I never altered a diaper in my life or swaddled [a baby]. [It’s amazing] how fast instinct takes over. My initial time holding Henley, we couldn’t trust how most adore we had for her in such a brief volume of time.”
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The couple’s bond with any other has usually strengthened after welcoming their daughter, and “I feel like a luckiest man in a world,” says Hehner. “The approach Jamie rubbed herself through a pregnancy, labor and post-labor is amazing. She’s a strongest chairman we know.”
Adds Otis, “Watching Doug love on Henley creates me rush inside, and he’s so courteous and caring to me, too. I’ve never been some-more in love with him!”
Looking behind on their “unbelievable” tour — a integrate met for a initial time as Otis walked down a aisle towards Hehner on Lifetime’s strike uncover — is “so funny,” says Otis.
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